It takes so much courage to dream of being someone you’ve never been before
to break away from the familiar and set out on a path to someplace new
(a new identity, perhaps)
and to think to ourselves, maybe I can try things this way just for a little while
until we find our way fitting into a new skin that never felt like ours to begin with.
The journey there sometimes feels impossible
fettered with questions about “How do I keep this up?” and “Can I really do this?”
and maybe sometimes we even get scared and run back to the starting line.
But hope is unrelenting, thankfully, so that we can always start again
and choose to make different choices
that lead us down the path toward where we want to go.
While it may seem foolish to believe that we have all the time in the world,
we have to believe that our God-given lifetime will be enough for us to get there.
I can’t speak for others, but I have stumbled and fallen more times that I can count
in my pursuit of being someone better
someone I can be proud of
because, so often, I am not proud of what I see
though I think that I could be
(s0me would say I have some audacity, and that’s all right with me.)
So let me ask you,
am I foolish?
or am I just back at square one like I always used to be?
because I truly do think that the workhorse in me can rough these rocky roads
even if it kills me on the way.